Growing up, I was always the kid who was a little bigger than most; I’ve never been skinny. To be honest, I used to blame it on genetics. I told myself that I would grow out of my weight: I told myself it was just baby weight. By the time I reached my senior year in high school, I realized that my body was never going to look like I wanted because I was doing nothing to make it happen. I hated myself. I reached a point in my life where I held myself back from being with friends in the summer because I was beyond embarrassed to be without a shirt, and I would hide my spontaneous personality (which was hard for someone who has a personality as strong as mine) because I didn’t want my body to be singled out and judged. When my senior year in high school started, I knew things had to change: that’s when I was introduced to a life changing program.
I look up to my uncle as a mentor and a father figure, so
when he sat down to talk with me about my weight and how I should think about
exercising and getting fit, I knew I couldn’t disappoint him. He said he would
purchase the P90X program if I promised to complete the whole program (with him
by my side of course): I said yes. And let me tell you, it was the best
decision of my life! Once I decided to commit it was like some sort of exercise
guru took-over my body and forced me to get fit and lose weight. Of course it
wasn’t always easy and exciting. There were plenty of times when I tried to
make an excuse not to workout for that day; I hurt too much from the day before,
I had plans, I was tired, etc. There were even days where I told myself “you
are not cut out for this. You will never look like you want, so just give up
now” but I then would envision myself 2 months from that point and see myself
healthier and more fit than I could have ever imagined: that picture was what
pushed me through the tough times.
When I started P90X, I weighed 195lbs. I couldn’t run more
than .25 miles without stopping and I could barely complete the daily exercises
(but I pushed as hard as I could). I was disgusted with myself, and I wanted to
give up. But P90X changed all of that! After I completed the program, I weighed
140lbs and was in the best shape of my life. I ran 2-3 miles every day and blew
through the daily exercises with ease. I was finally proud of my body. And it
was great timing because I was about to start college the following year, so it
was a great feeling knowing I was going into college with the most
self-confidence I have had in all of my life.
When I started college, I felt great. For the first 2 months
I stayed on my daily routine of exercise. But the further I progressed in
college, the less I would workout. A huge part of college is being independent
and getting involved, so I got 2 jobs and became involved within numerous
organizations. I had gotten to the point where I was attending class for half
of the day, work for 5 hours, and then organizations meetings for a few more
hours: there was no time to workout. I slumped into my old habits; I let myself
down by gaining all of my weight back and slowly getting out of shape. Today, 2
years later, I weigh 185lbs. I hate myself again. I think to myself everyday
“how could you let yourself get this way again? After all of your hard work
getting to a point where you were happy” and I just blamed it on time.
Finally, I decided that enough was enough. I told myself I
would never get back to this point, unfortunately I failed. But because I felt
the taste of success 2 years ago, I am driven more than ever to get back there.
And stay there! I have made a promise to myself, and the people I coach, that I
will never let myself nor themselves get to the point of self-hatred. Although
a mistake was made (you fell back into your old habits), that doesn’t/shouldn’t
stop you from getting back. I have learned from my mistake, I took my success
for granted, and I know now that I will NEVER come back to this.
Shaun T opened my eyes to Focus T25. For a guy like me,
nothing is more fitting in my life than an hour’s worth of workout in 25 minutes.
I have not finished the program yet (I am actually only 2 days into it), but I
already feel better. I feel like I did 2 years ago. I don’t know if is just the
program, or if the Shakeology has something to do with it, but I feel great!
Within the 2 days that I have been using Shakeology and Focus T25, I have lost
2lbs. And I have made a huge change this time around with my transformation.
This time I am not just doing it to lose weight and get fit: this time I am
doing it to live a completely different lifestyle, a healthy lifestyle. I am
following a nutrition plan, doing the exercises, and taking the supplements. I
am changing my life for the better. And this time it’s going to stay.
Until Next Time,
The Intern
Until Next Time,
The Intern
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